Left in the Dark My true Story

I started crossdressing when I was 10 years old, My sister Joy, decided she wanted to play dress up, with me being the one dressed up. It started just wearing her dresses but soon progressed to all out dress up with panties, bra, stockings with garters and high heels to go with her dresses. One day she surprised me and had her best friend Barb join us. By this time I was 12 and Joy was 17. Joy n Barb started even applying make up on fixing my hair. Next thing I know they are teaching me hoe to lick and suck their pussies. They really got off on watching my little dick get hard and come on its own when they shoved hair brush handles up my ass. This ended abruptly when Joy left home. Since I did learn how to eat pussy, so I never had a problem with girls.
I married Helen at 18. I still enjoyed crossdressing but never shared it with her, Finally one day, I was home alone so I got all dressed up and was fucking my boi pussy with Helen's dildo when she came home early. I was caught red handed. I tried to explain but she just called me a fag and kicked me out.
I decided to join the Air force. That took me to Sacramento Ca. That is when I met Robin. She was in the Air force too. I worked in a lab and she worked in Base supply. The base supply personnel were about 80% black. It was well known that Robin had been with at least 6 of the black guys from the department. We got married only after 6 months. Robin was up front with me that she had sex with black guys from the supply department. At this tine I confessed my crossdressing fetish. Robin had me dress up for her and we actually made love as two girls. Later she said with my little dick I made a good girl. One night she said she had a surprise for me and go get dressed up. When I came out of the bedroom and into the living room, there was Darrell and George, 2 of her black coworkers. Robin said there's my sissy. I have Darrell and George here to show you what real men do to white sluts like me. Darrell said enough talk slut, get your whore mouth on my black dick. They used all her holes for over 2 hours. When they were done I had to clean their cocks and her cum filled cunt. George said from now on robin is a black cock only whore and you will be our sissy slut. Being I was kneeling there with their cum on my face and dressed as a sissy. From then on I was left in the dark wanting only to serve superior black men.