SPH = small penis humiliation

I have always been intimidated and I still am always very, very much intimidated by other naked men who have been blessed with larger dicks in a communal shower and in the locker room at any gym or at my health club. I always try not to stare at other naked men with large dicks when I am naked in the locker room...honestly, I just try not to be caught staring. Maybe it's a Napoleon Complex thing but I actually feel shamefully inadequate when I am in the nude along with any other naked men, or man, straight, gay or in between, who has a penis longer and thicker than my own penis. It doesn't happen every time I am naked around other naked men but it definitely has happened to me. Too many times I have been teased, made fun of and shamed because my little dick doesn't even nearly measure up.

Women also have laughed at me, teased and shamed me for having a small penis. Found out my wife, rest her soul, was being spiteful and told friends and work mates that I am a pathetic little f a g g o t and a fucking sissy and how very much it turned me on to wear makeup and dress in panties, bra, skirt, blouse , high heels and wig and how I begged her to let me do it again and again. She was a little high from too much to drink one time and bragged that she told everyone that I am a sissy with a small cock. The cat was out of the bag.

Over the years I have come to accept that my cock is too small. I know, most certainly, that I will definitely not ever be content that my penis is too small, and now my advanced age and my low testosterone has caused my titties to sag and my already small penis very much smaller. I feel so painfully inadequate and regretfully I am sure that I always will. If there can be an up side to my having a small dick, though, I think my now even tinier little penis does make my balls seem to look a much larger. So I guess that could maybe considered somewhat of a good thing.